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You need to pick yourself up and keep moving forward. I find if I read and read until I can't read anymore I feel better. I use the Al-anon lit, books and this board. Until you completely let go your life will be unmanageable.

I had to find out why I had guilt and fear before I could do something about it. I had a lot of guilt...the fear was I didn't want nothing to happen to my son. As these 4 years have passed I.m finding I can't stop anything that could or would happen to my son no matter what I did. I would have him stay with me but when he walked out my door it would all start over again. I couldn't stop it so why do I put myself in front only to be disappointed again, again and again.

As I work on myself I find that fear going away, the worry and guilt going away. I'm letting go. I pray everyday for my HP to give me the strength and courage to stay on the right path so I will have peace. I also pray that my HP will take care of my son.

I don't need to take care of my son anymore.....been there done that.....my way didn't work.

Now it's my son's turn to take care of himself. He can do it when he's ready......if he's never ready so be it.

I love him so much.....and that love includes letting him go and letting my HP take over.

Just remember everything you do enabling him is only hurting him in my books. He has that soft landing which let's him continue living HIS way.

I know my son is scared sh******...... I hope he is. Maybe just maybe he will do something about it. I can only pray...

((( hugs )))