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Last night I had a bad night of worry and stress. Tomorrow night, my AH goes to the DUI Hotel for three nights. I'm anxious to see how the weekend helps him with his recovery. Today he has been sober for 37 days, and I am hopeful that he is taking the right steps. In the meantime, as hopeful as I am about all of that, I am so stressed about finances, my sons and their situations with school and work. My Dad's health is in question, and he is thousands of miles away. I'm worried about people trying to reach my husband while he is "away" this weekend, and how I will explain it. I have a very busy work weekend, which he and I usually take care of together, but he won't be there to help. I suppose having to drive for two hours in white knuckle bad snowy, icy weather last night didn't help matters. I need to pray the Serenity Prayer over and over today. I'm going to a meeting tonight, and it can't come quickly enough for me. Please pray for me. Thank you, friends.
I guess I should add...it's been a really tough year from my youngest son. He was already in jeopardy of not graduating high school this year because of messing around and not doing his work. He has ADD and a reading comprehension problem. He was gung-ho going into this school year, and his very best friend (more like a brother) passed away suddenly in September. It was a heart mutation that had not been diagnosed. My son has been so troubled by this, and he has had some counseling, but it's a really difficult thing to get past. Since then, he has only been doing what he has to do with school. We learned last week, after he did not complete a big project on time, that he won't be graduating with his class. I know that I have done all that I can, as his Mom. My husband (his step-dad) is frustrated with the situation, and feels that he used his friend's death as an excuse not to do his best in school. It's a really hard situation.
All of my prayers coming your way! You certainly have a lot on your plate, but just remember one step at a time. Don't worry about other people trying to get in touch with your husband...remember that what he is doing is such a positive step for himself, you and the family. Also I know that when we are in it, things can really seem monumental in scope but in the scheme of things (even 5-10 yrs from now), your son graduating at a different time than originally planned will not be a huge deal. The impact of his friend's death must be extremely difficult for him.
Thank you for the prayers and the positivity. I have to keep telling myself it will all just be a blip on the radar screen later down the road. I just wish I didn't have to deal with so much stuff at the same time. I was exhausted last night. Thankfully, my husband has been so positive and supportive the past few days. I am truly grateful for that.
