I just read an older post from Jerry F about detaching with love...quite powerful. "Love first, Love always." It has helped me so much and given me a sense of peace as I turn my son over to the God of my understanding.  Here's the prayer I found online in those deparate times when I would search for help. 

Mothers Prayer

God, my heart is aching and I need your strength.

I pray that You will fill my heart with love and courage and strength; I pray that you will let me feel your presence in this dark time.

I pray that my son will feel how much love surrounds him

I feel boundless love for him. I think of him as a little boy splashing in the tub, and my heart breaks to see him as he has become. I love him so much, and I know that You love him more than I ever can.

Please, let him feel this love.

Please let him use this love to break free from drugs.

Please show both of us the path we must walk.

Amen