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I don't know where to start. Basically, I've been in relationship with a herion addict for almost three years. I didn't even know he had drug problems until almost the second year. I told his family and they had an intervention for him and he went to rehab. He emerged from rehab and seemed to be doing well but relapsed (he says 3 times). I had to force it out of him. I've gotten pretty wise as to what to look for. Anyway, hearing this news, I think I'm just done. I'm done feeling hurt and betryed. It's an awful feeling not being able to trust someone that you love dearly. I'm very angry and haven't spoken with him and it was hard to get through work today. I'm so sad. I wonder if I will ever recover from the emotional damage this relationship has caused. I knew I shouldn't have stayed in this relationship with him. I assumed the very high risk of his relapse but I also diluted myself into thinking it wouldn't happen. I feel so numb and I really wish I would have just never met this person. I feel so hurt and betrayed. No one around me understands so thank you for taking the time.
Please check out alanon face to face meetings in your community AND ATTEND. Alcoholism and addiction are recognized as a disease over which we are powerless. Having lived with this disease we too need a program of recovery-- Alanon is that program
Hello Zanib, Welcome, and huge congratulations on realising that you are worth taking care of - I am sending you lots of (((hugs))).
The first time I walked into an Alanon meeting there was a wonderful sense of love and understanding in the room (even though it was clear that some folks were even more exhausted that I was! That feeling alone helped me so much - it was a realisation that I did not have to deal with this without people to lean on, and that there were amazing people out there who knew so much more than me! In my humble opinion it is only natural that you would have hoped for the best so be gentle with yourself (in fact I think you deserve a pat on the back for your fabulous self-awareness!) I do hope that you manage to get to Alanon, in the meantime I'll be sending you lots of positive vibes to make the journey as easy as possible for you.
