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Today I'm going to do nothing but sit on my behind and enjoy the peace I have right now. I want to do a little step work....journaling....and just relax and pray. Also need to watch TV, eat lobster and shrimp for dinner.....yep..thats what I bought for Christmas dinner.
I don't want to call my son so I sent him a email. I feel a little guilty about it being so impersonal but I just don't really want to talk to him. I love him but I think if I talk to him on the phone my serenity would be gone in a heartbeat. My little bit of guilt is better than a full blown crisis if I did call....I don't know but I'm not going to that chance.
I will pray that all my MIP family will have a little peace and serenity today
Merry Christmas (((( hugs )))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Lobster, shrimp and serenity sound like a wonderful Christmas. Have a happy day, Cathy. You deserve peace and quiet.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Exactly what I chose for today. And I agree. An email is fine esp since this year you need to take care of yourself.
Like you, I will be doing some stepwork. I have already done some first thing this morning. Asked God to forgive us all for our humanism but WITHOUT feeling guilty and running off to get relief from that guilt by calling people or being dishonest.
In my case, I don't like the way my family has treated me and they've had years to stop it, so I decided today to take care of me.
THe problem with not showing up is I get to let them see they affect me. Not showing up is a reaction too. It's like I'm validating my role as the scapegoat, the one who's pushed away for the comfort and security of others. THis is difficult stuff! But like you, today I need to take care of me and mnaybe next year I will hae more tools and be able to see them for a few hours, then go to a meeting afterwards with the other family God gave me.
