OK so I feel much better today. I got through a stressful day yesterday as I really actually knew I would. I am OK w/ not spending too much time thinking about my dad. I had some moments of memories & then I let it go. I am so glad that I don't have to be depressed. Mostly yesterday I was just anxious. I am trying not to let the small stuff get in my way. I have too much to think about that I don't have time for the small stuff.

The holiday is approaching quickly & I am ready. I want to have a serene & uneventful one. I mean I don't want to focus too much on what I am missing but what a joy it is to spend w/ my husband. So, my mom & my family will celebrate w/o me. Oh well...I will make new memories & enjoy the peace of the season. I am likely to have a better day than I used to. So much depends on my attitude & if I let it dominate my mind. I am not perfect but I have it in my power to let my heart lead the way instead of my unstable mind. I am so glad that my life doesn't depend on what others think of me. That used to be the biggest thing that used to get to me.

I will be back(I think) on Monday. Then I will really be in the spirit. Blessings to all of you!

Kathleen