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I am upstairs right now, while my AH sits downstairs, drinking and watching TV. He came up to tell me something, and I had a Facebook game up on my computer screen. He said "oh, you're playing a game?" and I responded that yes, I had been looking at my mom's Facebook page. Then I started to cry before I could get the rest out (which was essentially that I miss my mom a lot, and after looking at her FB page I needed a diversion). He patted my back for a minute, said he was sorry, then left. Then 5 seconds later he barges right in to say "but you were playing a game! Are there games on your mom's facebook page?!?"
I KNOW this is the disease. I know that he is hiding things from me, and this kind of crappy behavior is a result of his own guilty conscience for God knows whatever it is that he is doing. But honestly...this is my mother we are talking about, who has been gone for less than a year. It's the holidays, and I miss her. Fortunately, I was too upset to even engage him about what was clearly an insinuation that I was lying about looking at my mom's FB page. Ugh. I hate this disease.
omg your post reminds me of my abf, when he lived here he would always moan that i played games on facebook and become more vicious about it...for me i was isolating. Im sending you hugs at this sad and difficult time with the loss of you mum and the christmas time.
In support
Simone x
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