Facing the unknown and the expected... - Al-Anon Family Group

glad lee · ~*Service Worker*~

Facing the unknown and the expected...

Jerry F · ~*Service Worker*~

I'm deeply grateful to both of my programs emphasis on Al-Anon. I can only exist serenely in today and that is time enough to deal with and live with what is present before me...lots of stuff...great, good, pleasant, curious, somewhat anxious, worrisome, frightening and terrorizing. Most of what is going on is in the first four descriptions and only some in the five. The some in the last five include my concerns for the ongoing health of my culture...lots of native peoples involved and doing the best they can, standing with HP to realize our soverign rights and abilities to be truely self determining. I do this part time because I am powerless over this age old condition. Another part is the dwindling health of my elder brother who has cancer in his spine which is metatazing(?) to end stage condition. My feelings are empathetic and which having fear with him, anxiety and confusion with him and sadness with him. I picture him laying in the palms of HP's hands and HP feeling the same way I feel yet with stronger awareness and love. My elder brother and I were not close...in fact I was not close with any of my siblings...I was "The lone ranger". I am here in the island nation of my birth...they are not and after saying that my next part is for my spouse who isn't from here either and while she has visited the land of her creation almost at will her family is growing and she will not be there for Christmas with her grand-children and children. She has the freedom to leave and stays. I'm not worrying about being a good partner. The final concern is in regard to my own health and the legal challenge being initiated against the government and police for the harrassment and assault of Nov 8, 2011. The pain of a damaged spine at times is horrendous and I empathize more with my brother. The pain of being a captive Hawaiian National in the land of my birth is as painful...I don't like it and I never have and I won't accept it even under the threat of being physically assaulted and harrassed in the future. I know the miraculous feeling of being free from the clutches of alcoholism and not the clutches of a foreign government. I am not alone and that helps me feel more safe and secure. My brother and my wife and I are abided by Akua...the God of my understanding and I have hope and faith and love...God doesn't give us any more that we can handle. I'm good to go talk to the lawyer. Thanks for letting me share. (((((hugs))))) smile

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

I love your share and the honesty. You are a wise old timer and it is nice to hear even you have struggles and human trials. I seem to waver with my recovery from high to low and spend more and more time in the zone, but not always for too long. I hope to walk such a strong walk as you someday. I am feeling beyond greatful for this program and all my blessings lately and am so glad God can handle all that I can not, so I can just let it go and move freely. Sending you love and support!

Zimmy · Senior Member

(((Jerry)))

Thankyou for sharing with us.

Much love and support always

Simone x

pinkchip · ~*Service Worker*~

Wishing you peace and onging serenity.

tiredtonite · Veteran Member

Wishing passion, strength and courage "just for today." Hugs - TT

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

My dear brother/friend, I am very proud of you for standing up for your culture. You have a lot of integrity. Though I tease you all the time, I highly respect you. I too very much am disheartened by the loss of our own native cultures in the usa.My family on daddys side, his mother was Lakota Sioux.

It is unforgiveable what happened to you. You suffer the scars from that. When you do face the courts please feel my prayers and spirit with you. I mean that Jer.

It is horribly hard to have family and friends be so sick. My mother told me it was harder for her to see all of us hurt than her being the one with Cancer. It doesn't matter if we are close or not does it? I mean many of us have love and empathy for strangers. We are all connected. All life is.

You continue to be a wonderful member of MIP. I am very grateful for that. love,debilyn

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