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My son called and was talking off the wall. He was sober but his mind is lost and not thinking right. It's so sad to listen to him.
He wants me to take his things....
No he wants me to take his things so I will help him. It's not going to happen.
He is so lost and confused now and I pray he will come to grips with what is happening to him and seek the help. He's still in the mode I will do it maybe..not sure.
When we talk he starts to enage me and then when I say anything he gets defensive. So no matter what I do or say it doesn't work anymore.
He knows I won't help him so he crys and says well mom something will happen guaranteed.
I wonder if he will get it together or sink of dispair and confustion. It's really touch and go at the moment
I have to cry for him right now but I will step up and do my part and take care of me and pray for him afterwards.
I'm heartbroken about what is happening....... this isn't easy. I will read tonight and remind myself of things I have learned over these last few weeks. I forget offen.
Let go Let God take care of him..... OH God I love him so...
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
cathy, tonight at the meeting someone shared this. "when he does not suffer the consequences of his behavior he does not learn anything. god is more than able to protect him. i can not see around the corner. and i can not do a god job. he needs a relationship with his higher power. not me trying to be his higher power. letting him go so he can go through what he needs to go through. to grow up is one way of loving him without trying to control him." i was so moved by these powerful words as i am going through a similar situation with my own AS. prayers your way hon. as painful as i is for you at this moment perhaps this is what he needs to get well. hang in there. lots of hugs your way, debbie
Last week someone shared something at a meeting that helped me with learning to detach from my AH: Instead of saying "Let go and let God" you can say "Let God and let go". The person who shared this compared the concept to a relay race where you hand the stick to the next runner. We can "hand over" our A to God and then let go more easily knowing God already has them.
Not sure if that made sense. The person sharing it at the meeting put it much more eloquently than me.
Let God and Let Go... Well after my crying jag and reading to remind me WHY I'm doing this I'm again stable this morning. My worry for my son I'm sure is justified but it only makes me sick again and again. Just work my program...express my thoughts with Al-anon and MIP....listen and keep my mind open to new ideas and I will continue to grow.
I keep telling myself I have been this way for many years so its not going to get better overnight. Continue to trust my HP to take care of my son so I can take of me and life will get better and better as each day passes. I pray HP will gives me the courage to change so MY crisis times become less and less each and every day.
Keep telling myself that he needs the respect to take over his own life so he can seek a plan that will work for him. Let him make his choices and handle his own crisis.
I'm told you CAN teach a old dog ( in my case woman ) new tricks.... haha
Bless you all for being here for me again and again.
-- Edited by Cathyinaz on Sunday 9th of December 2012 11:11:42 AM
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
