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I feel like I should be baking him a cake or getting him a gift, it's what I did when I was seperated from him last year before the divorce was final. I know I won't and haven't, but what a true codependent I am. I have a program and I work it diligently, but for some reason his birthday coming is bringing me back to a bit of stinkin thinkin and it is weird to me. I have moved on and been feeling so strong lately even with Turkey day and Christmas and switching the kids around with him has gone smoothly. I know I will always battle this brain of mine and it shouldn't surprise me, but it does. The strength and power of just wanting one phone call, just to hear his voice. Wow, it must be like the A to the alcohol. I will resist and get over it, done it several times and it comes farther and fewer in between these days. Must be why I know I will be old and still in this program like my wise sponsor. I am handing him to my HP and going to bed now. Sending you all sweet dreams.
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
I relate to this, and because it made no sense to me, I needed my sponsor for clarity. She suggested that I make peace with the regret. So I wrote a few pages about how sad I still feel that our family can no longer be together for these special occasions, I regret that we no longer have those good times together. certain calendar days still trigger the sadness and regret in me.....
Perhaps that's what you're feeling too. It's okay to be sad. we don't have to put a time table on our grief ((hugs))
-- Edited by glad lee on Tuesday 4th of December 2012 10:00:31 AM
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Hugs my friend, this too shall pass. You work a wonderful program. You know what works and what doesn't. Sending you a ton of love and support!! Hugs p ;)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Oh that goes away LOL. I did that the first two years post divorce, feeling "bad" for my ex because he's made himself quite a lonely fellow with his behaviors. I couldn't hardly get my kids to make him a card or anything, they would respond with "why, he hate us" and that's hard to argue with.
But I no longer get those feelings and truly feel he's entirely entitled to the life he's made for himself exactly as it is. Hugs, it WILL pass as Pushka said :)
