I know you all care! - Al-Anon Family Group

hotrod · ~*Service Worker*~

I know you all care!

Hoot Nanny · ~*Service Worker*~

I know you all care cause I can feel your prescence when I write anything on here. I feel supported & loved. I am just wondering just how much you can all relate to my posts. I am trying so hard to fit in these days because I am feeling crazy! I still & will always have bipolar disorder. I hope somehow someone w/ the same disorder might relate to what I am going through so I don't feel alone as I do sometimes.

The holiday season is upon us & someone said that they suffer from SAD. Someone else said that it really isn't true. I am wondering about those lamps that give out artificial light that helps when the sun is barely out which happens here often in the winter time. I am just sad. I woke up crying the other morning. My eyes were wet. Does anyone out there go through this? I had my dad on my mind as I started to cry. The year has gone by & I have survived it but the anniversary is coming up soon--before Christmas. I am just going to have to celebrate life & the holiday. I cried last night as well but it wasn't as bad.

Saturday my husband & I had a long discussion about the way I treat him. It went along w/ tears & concern by him--it basically ended up being about me. My behavior sucks! Pardon my lack of tact. I just wanted to express how I feel & sometimes sucking really helps.

Now at least we have an understanding & I am already starting to change & am more self-aware.

So, I am done here for the day--gotta go! My time is almost up!

Kathleen

Jerry F · ~*Service Worker*~

I've gone thru that condition myself...mostly in the past and then now in the present when I go thru it my feelings and reactions are more honest. I find that I am honestly compassionate and sometime that shows up thru tears. I have my deep concerns and passions and often that brings about real tears and riotous laughing. I hope you are getting to face to face meetings and have a sponsor because that was pure gold toward my changes...I used to only use rage and anger and then the program taught me about feelings and I learned how to cry and laugh and cheer...sooooo different!! Most important for me is not only having others understand me at times and for me to understand me and know I'm not ever alone. HP is and one is; is present all the time. I care about you and love you unconditionally and am powerless over you and your conditions. (((((hugs))))) smile

maryjane · ~*Service Worker*~

I live in the north too and I have lots of lights around me all day. There are special lights that give out a certain spectrum of colors, but I find that flourescent lights do just as well for me. I have lights on all day long. If other people like 3 lights in the bathroom, I like 6 lights.

I also had to think about how in the winter my instinct is to hibernate at home (so cozy) but I drive myself crazy and I have to stay busy. So I had to find some things that I can do with a regular schedule all year long. I volunteer at the local elementary school every Monday and at the local zoo on Wednesday.

Between the lights and the busyness, I make it through to the sunny time of the year.

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

Winter is hard and I am in ne WI and I just make myself go out and do stuff bundled up. I grew up in so Cal and boy do I miss it Jan-March, but this is where I am planted for now. I too feel the love when I get here and can relate to the shares. Be gentle with yourself. I am sending you much love and support!

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