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Lyne


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So I've just spent my entire weekend being depressed about my A plus (plus other addictions), and now today I am so ANGRY.  GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.  I am usually a very NICE person and I don't think I can do it tonight.  I'm not going to fight;  I just feel like I don't want to smile or make "how was your day" conversation.  I have to turn into the robot (numb) to get through the evening.  Isn't it sad when you look forward to being @ work?  blankstare



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I understand. There are many days when I just fume inside and it's so much effort to just get put a fake smile on my face. One thing I've learned is: this too shall pass. You know, tomorrow is a new day and yes, it's OK to just look forward to work. Hang in there!

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stephaniej


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((HUGS)) Lyne! I have been there, done that, especially the "look forward to work" thing. I see my AH very rarely during the week, and on weekends when he isn't working overtime, I often find myself thinking "Monday can't get here fast enough."

Hang in there, and good luck maintaining your serenity tonight.

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Aloha Lyne...reading the title I had to ask myself...hmmmmm what part of the Let go and Let God isn't working?  I know the statement and the thought behind it cause I've been there and done that myself and the solution was staying up with the practice of it.  It's my part that I needed to get better at.   I've slept at work a time or two and sometimes to keep myself isolated from the alcoholic/addict so that I didn't continue to do rash things.  Recovery gets much better with practice over time.  God, for me, always does God's part.    (((((hugs))))) smile



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I remember those days well....just" getting through"...I felt like I was wasting my life. I just couldn't see just "getting through" the rest of my life and hit a point where I felt I needed to take control. I left.

Now divorced...and haven't looked back. Got tired of waiting for the other shoe to fall..which it invariably did.

I have rediscovered the happy me that sort of got lost along the way...reading your post reminded me of how I felt then..



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Lyne


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Jerry~The part of Let go and let God that wasn't working was the me part! I couldn't do my part. Today I am calmer but still don't know what to do about my life. It is such a blessing to have this message board for support. Lyne

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