You Know I am So Grateful For Al-Anon/ACOA its not even Funny! I know I Say this alot, but its True non the Less...

This Morning I get one of those LOVELY Calls from my ASis, who is in Complete & Total "Whirling" Mode, Trying to Control Others, (Except Herself) Trying to Force Solutions that are not her's to own, and staying so Taggled in this Disease we Call life its not Even Funny!

I have My Moments, I think if I Wouldn't I wouldn't be Human, But she is Trying to Force my "Cody" Mom to SEE Life thru her eyes, and See the Damage she is Causing Abrother even tho, she has heard it all before...

For So Many Years I too Jumped on the Whirling Wheel, and Ran with the Hampsters in my Head on the Never Ending Wheel of Shame, Pity, Resentments, abuse, neglect, selffishness... All Because I thought that was ALL i had...I thought that was My Duty to be apart of All of their JUNK... Along with Managing MY Junk! LIke I Had ANY Control to begin with!

I Feel I Did OK, Listening And Allowing her to Release its Ugly Head, and in Detaching with Love, I Told her she needs to take care of HER, and Allow Mom & Brother to take care of themselves, Even if Not doing as we would like! Its not Our Junk but theirs...

Am I Pissed that My Abrothers KNOWS he can Use & Abuse Our Mothers Kindness, and that he Uses Guilt, and Selfishness to get Everything he can! Absolutely! Can I Control either of them! NO! Can I Cure them NO! Did I Cause it NO! Did i Stop Contributing to it! YES! I have told my Mom My Issues with Her Choices & How it has Effected Myself & My Sister, and thats All I Can Do! I didn't use Guilt, or Pity or non of it, I Said My Peace... And Told her it was the last time she would hear it from me cause it was her life & her Choices what she does with it!

My ASis is Not there! She still have the NEED to feel Some Form of Control! I Rarely LIKE to deal with any of it, but I Refuse to allow it to suck the Life out of me all over again that I have busted my Hump to Hang on too...

Being around my Afamily over the holiday has proved yet again... I am Going to be OK! I have learned to Mind My Own Business, I have Learned how to Know when it is time to leave the Room and Go Play with the "Real" Children, Not the Ones Acting like children! I have learned that what they say & do is Really NON of My Business, and the only decission I have to Make is if I am going to Ingage & have regrets OR, Disingage & have a Life! I Choose Life!

I still have my Slips, I am Human.. However Learning MY PLACE... Has been Nothing Short of a True Blessing in My Life, becasue it has helped me on so many differant levels of my Life... Before I Landed here I thought Kaios was the NORM! And Now I Find it Unacceptable... THANK GOD ABOVE for My HP, My Program, & My Program Family! Blessed indeed to have so Many Wonderful Blessings...

Thanks for Letting Me Share...

Love, Hugs & Prayers to All that Sit in this Disease and those Like it!

Jozie