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I'm looking for some ES&H. I've been thinking about trust lately, specifically in relation to my HP. That lead me on to thinking about faith. I'm praying at the moment for a deepening of my trust & faith in my HP and I always pray to remain willing.
Do any of you have anything to share on the subject, I'd really appeciate your ES&H.
I do believe that when I entered the rooms of alanon I did not trust anyone or anything I even had lost faith and trust in MYSELF. Ala non promised me new tools to live by and asked that I keep an open mind as far as a Higher Power was concerned.
I began the task of implementing the Steps into my life and found that I certainly could not admit powerless as in the first step unless I was willing to believe in a HP that could restore me to sanity
I noticed that the step indicated that this HP could Restore me to sanity" It does not say Power greater than myself could make me happy, rich, my husband stop drinking --- Simply "restore me to sanity." Who thought I needed that?
As I proceeded to work the Steps my faith and trust in a higher power increased. When I was working the 4th Step and my pain was so great I called out-- if you exist help me let go of this pain. The next today it was gone I searched prodded and poked for it to return but it was lifted never to return. I trust and have absolute Faith in my HP. He does not give me what I want unfortunately most of the time but I know He walks with me in every situation and guides my steps
Thanks Betty, A thought struck me before that "something" had made me ask for ES&H in regard to this topic. I like to think that that "something" was my HP helping me. Jane
When I came into the program I had just lost my trust and faith in my alcoholic hubby. He had become my HP. And he really let me down..... So I came to AlAnon not even knowing what I didn't have. I had to work the program for a while to get myself out of denial as to who my HP had become, and then to get back to the HP that I grew up with. It was not too hard to transfer my trust back over to the "real" HP. Now it is automatic and I really don't think about it much except when I have an attitude check to make sure I am still trusting the right entity.
I find that I am slowly learning to trust and have faith in my higher power. It's a process but one that I feel I am getting better with every day.
I hear a member share at my home group that in life there is where you want to be and where you are meant to be. There is a plan.
The more I think about it, even though I havn't always agreed with the timing of my higher power's plan for me, my HP has always been there for me when it's counted. I am at a stage where I am not happy right now with my role in life. I am blessed beyond anything I could have imagined in so many areas, but I am extremelly lonely. I just have to sit back and trust that I am exactly where I need to be. I also have a role to play, I am taking the appropriate action. the rest isn't up to me.
