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I am on my 3rd night not taking Ambien after taking it for over a week (I hate being dependant on any kind of drug so I dont want to be taking sleeping pills for longer than necessary). I fell asleep on my own at around 11:30 - woke up at 12:30 to go to the bathroom (WAY too much cranberry juice today!) and then immediately fell back asleep and then woke up again now at 3:45 to go to the bathroom. At least I am getting some sleep - which is better than I was doing before I went on the Ambien so thats good! But I am having really unpleasant dreams - the first one I remember when I woke up the first time was about my dog who just died - and how I was consoling her because I knew she was dying in front of me and it was paining me that I couldnt do anything for her (which by the way - she lived with my parents 45 minutes away and I wasnt there when she died). The second dream was about my ex - and it was me trying to make amends and pick up where we left off - which we were trying to do but I felt like it was a struggle and everytime I spoke to him on the phone he was a different person - and the last time I called him (in my dream) he had left a message on his voicemail for some girl named Wendy that he went out with the night before - a nasty one saying "I thought when we went out last night that you were interested in hanging out again - guess you just wanted to play games - well I'll be on a date tonight". Every time I called him - it kept going straight to voicemail and the message kept changing and sounding like he was higher ever time. Finally he answered his phone and I got a nasty person (obviously very high) to which I confronted him about the voicemail message and he made up some story.
I dont know if it is coming off the Ambien that causes strange dreams. But they arent pleasant at all. The second dream was definitely close to reality of what I was going through with the confusion and lies for the last couple of days/weeks with my ex. Guess I still am pretty hurt by it and still trying to resolve it in my head.
(((cyn))) i know how you feel. my dreams effect me very much and are always about what is going on in my life. i hope i can have a good sleep tonight, havnt had one in a while. keep taking care of yourself. you sound good.
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