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It seems like every time I try to do the right thing it always comes out wrong???????????????? I am so frustrated w/ myself it seems like it never ends. I have been on my AH for days. I think I know why--I have been having trouble w/ my weight(outside issue) but it kills me when my weight starts to go up & it seems that it is out of control! I am powerless over the stupid scale, right? Anyhow, it is taking its toll on me. I am literally being a B. Which I believe is not true only once in a great while. I have been unable to exercise which comes from the fact that my body won't let me do! I am obviously suffering from lots of pain. Those who follow me know that I have been seeing an arthritis specialist. I got the X-rays & blood tests but am waiting for the results on the 22nd. I think I mentioned this before. I have a tendency to repeat myself.
So, as I wait for the results, I am hoping there will be treatment for this whatever it is. I am praying that I feel better as I don't have the patience to wait. I want instant results.
By the way, my friend in the program is handling her situation OK. I am continually praying for her as I really can't do anything for her but listen. Get what I am trying to say?
I am doing all I can to stay above water. The world sucks but I won't let my world come crashing down!
Are you going to face to face meetings ? I too had a weight problem when I was living with my ex alcoholic, I used food to push down my hurt feeling, to console myself. Food was my choice of drugs. Once I started to work the program & use the tools & started to feel good about myself the eating got under control & the weight fell off, then 75% of my physically pain also left. Yes I still have arthritis, but the weight was making it much worse. One day at a time. Keep on doing what is right for you. My no. one thing in life is to get myself well & stay well by staying in Al Anon this time & working the steps.
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Aloha Kath...just one of the things that I do when my expectations are seemingly not being met is to practice self acceptance and patience...Getting hard on myself with judgements doesn't work...working with a sponsor does and others who love me more than I love my self at the time. Keep coming back. ((((hugs))))
If you're suffering from arthritis, I highly recommend doing some researching on the internet about this condition. Below this reply I will include just one of millions of links that addresses arthritis.
Through my research, I've discovered that most sources state the arthritis occurs in a highly acidic body. High acidity can cause inflamation in the body.
I'm close to 58. I was getting a little pain in the joints of my legs. However, after changing my diet (considerably) I feel absolutely no pain. So I believe I'm pain free due to my current diet.
Through change of diet, I also cleared up my chronic sinus congestion and chronic cough in 4 months. (I suffered for two years) The eye, ear, nose specialist suggested a nasal spray and surgery. He never discussed diet, how much water I consume - nothing. He diagnosed me with having post nasal drip and the cure was surgery.
Unfortunately, most doctors are not trained in nutrition and the effects it has on the body. They are trained to treat they symptom and not look for the cause.
I'm glad I did my research and I highly encourage you do the same. But at the same time, try to work with your doctor.
My doctor was amazed at my results. She asked me what I did. I pretty much stay away from all processed foods. People ask me where do I get my protein. I tell them research that question. Read lots of sources and decide for yourself. What resonates with me? That's what I ask myself. Then I try it.
Here's the link that might interest you: whoops, lost it. PM me if you want the link.
-- Edited by GailMichelle on Saturday 13th of October 2012 09:02:51 AM
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