well my a's one month sobriety went down the drain last night. i knew it would. im not suprised. but he didnt go to work didnt even call his boss and will probably lose his job. i told him to leave me alone and now he's talking about suicide. one of his friends killed himself about a month ago and since then when he gets depressed he threatens he'll do it. so i dont know what to do? i dont want to be in a relationship with him the way he keeps relapsing and hurting me. but i dont want him to kill himself. i really do love him and realize this is a disease. but its a disease he can get help with. he does the babysteps but never follows through. his mom is coming over to talk to me. i dont know about what. i just know it will be hard. just very confused right now