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What can i say? This place is great. Im having a good day. I feel at peace and have some confidence in myself again. I just wanted to share a big thank you to this site and all who contribute. I fear tomorrow i most likely will be hung up on something and loosing my mind again TODAY IS GOOD! And i ask that you hang with me as i flip flop these first days.
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IF YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS DONE, YOU WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS GOT
Aloha Rellik and great work staying in the moment..."Staying in the moment...practice that while you are enjoying it because you are going to want to duplicate it "tomorrow" if you have a "tomorrow"...it isn't here yet sooooo stay in the moment...relax, smile, enjoy, hum, whistle, hug, touch lightly...and of course thank your HP for the company. Have a great day!! (((hugs)))
Yeah like i said flip flop. I wish the flop didnt come till tomorrow. She left a little while ago to AA. She wasn't doing good. Sober but not good. We started talking about why she was so anxious and jittery. She told me she wanted to drink. So me forgetting everything i had learned fell into it. Going over all the reasons not to drink. Love family kids job ect. ect. She told me i know why i shouldnt drink but i want to. My heart dropped, i failed, i wasnt good enough. I was finally able to realize what i was doing... Trying to be the cure/crutch for her. It was emotionally dragging me down. I was able to tell her I need to go. I left for 15 minutes, went to the store and prayed as best i could. Came home and she left. So here i am trying to calm my nerves cuz i honestly dont know if she will come home tonight. It is an honest opinion she could die tonight. Even her sponsor is scared for her. They said she is so deep and far into her disease everytime she drinks she is honestly risking her life. The constant blackouts are more than i can deal with. Oh yeah she drives everytime.
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IF YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS DONE, YOU WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS GOT