The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have a compulsive liar for an investment partner that the lies have been making me miserable for the past few years.
Whatever comes out of his mouth is not to be believed.
He owes me money and I may get it and I may not get it. He will have to live with the consequences of his actions, though I really don't think he gets it at all.
I went to my first meeting last Saturday, this is the following Friday and I have hope creeping in.
I'm going to two meetings a day for the most part so far and am close to having a sponsor. We have spoken twice, though we have not met yet as Central Office had him call me at my request for a call to me this week. We'll meet very soon at a men's meeting, but I like what I hear from him.
This is life and death for me, the continued suffering will hurt my well being big time.
I can feel the program working in my mind so far, but I must get to a lot of meetings.
I know this can be normal for a newcomer. meetings, meetings, meetings.
Thanks for being there.
Dennis
(denro)
-- Edited by denro on Saturday 22nd of September 2012 01:07:17 AM
-- Edited by denro on Saturday 22nd of September 2012 01:13:19 AM
Your words support me in knowing that all will be well.
It's a lot of money and dealing with it it may have me really grow up and stop available as a victim and being scared.
Maybe I can live an emotionally level life without all the drama and highs and lows, stops and starts.
Maybe I get the real humility I never had. Maybe I get a relationship with Higher Power like never before. Maybe I get love in a way I never did. Maybe I eliminate my own need to look good. Maybe I get to work the steps in a way that was, until now, not possible.
I've had situations in the past that I put money at risk trusting people and got burned.
You would think I would have learned, but I did not.
I've had to learn the hard way about who to trust and not.
These sociopaths have always come my way and this is, I would say, THE lesson learned once and for all.
I know I am the source of what happens to me.
He's just doing what he does.
I believe I can get what I need from Al-Anon to have me be the person I was always destined to become and never did.
I am hopeful and will continue making a lot of meetings.
Thanks again.
Dennis (denro)
-- Edited by denro on Saturday 22nd of September 2012 02:16:59 AM
You're spot on Denro...going with an open mind and you will learn and grow like a recovery weed. It was life or death for me when I first got to the doors or Al-Anon and I was then willing to do anything suggested to me with the exception of quitting and then picking up my miseries I left at the door and then trying to find some other help. Mens Meetings!! yes!! I founded one once where I got into program and it ran for 19 years before closings...I don't know the number of men it helped and I do know that the one it did help is beyond gratitude...Me!! Lot of loving memories of that period of recovery. I also followed thru on the suggestion of 90 meetings in 90 days and that worked tons for me. We had over 439 meetings a month on both sides of the hallways which showed me how widespread the disease was. I'm still coming back and it is still working for me. Tomorrow I meet with who will or might turn out to be a legal sponsor. For now am turning that over to HP and being patient.
Keep on keeping on brother. Its starting to work in your brain...lets support it so that it also starts working in your emotions, body and spirit also. Welcome to MIP. (((hugs)))
