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I am singing praises right with you, my friend! God is great!! I am sitting here so thoroughly delighted at the improvement in your relationship.
It reminds me of something my first sponsor said to me. She said very firmly, "First of all gladlee, I was not always there for you. And if it seemed like it was.... it was God. give credit where credit is due."
I wanted to share that perspective with you because I tend to give human beings waaaay too much power in my life... to "help" and to "hurt" me. That is my co-dependency in a nutshell.
Thank you so much for bringing this beautiful update today (((hugs)))
-- Edited by glad lee on Tuesday 18th of September 2012 02:04:25 PM
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Hope I didn't scare anyone off with the title of this subject...I know we are all connected to our higher powers in different ways and levels. I have to say I have seen his hand so powerfully in my life in recent months that it is overwhelming. I think back to last summer, when I never knew what I would come home to, if my wife would be conscious or not. And now this summer, where she is speaking at AA meetings around town and has a peace and serenity that I have never seen in her in the 10 years I have had the pleasure of knowing her. More than that, in the last month or so I have fallen into a deep depression. I think it is a result of finally allowing myself to feel for the first time in my 40 plus years of life. Working hard in therapy has chipped away at the outer shell that I built to protect myself since I was a child. And I am feeling and it really hurts now but I have faith that it is all part of the recovery process.
The miracle of all of this is how my wife has been there for me. One year ago I had to prop her up, both literally and figuratively, and I didn't always do it as well as I could or should have. And now, here she is for me, helping me and encouraging me and being my biggest fan. I am blessed to have her.
It's a bumpy path but I am confident that I am going down the right path, and my family and my higher power are with me.
sometimes i do not uderstand where he is taing me, but today I trust more and hand over more and ny life is getting better.
Now I can see why I had to go through certain challenges and they where my challenges.
My abf is back in AA after a big slip and travelling his own journey it is lovely when they get the programme and learn to love themselves.. I on the other hand have to do my own work I too began to feel once my AA was taking care of himself and today those feelings are of joy
Thankyou for such a positive share..and a few weeks ago your title would of scared me, when i first hit my bottom (my beloved abf assulting me). I was angry scared and grieving. Why was i grieving the life we had lived for the last 6 years wasnt a great one but it was mine!! lol
He then called me to say he would do something stupid if I wouldn't let him live in the family home. I found the strength (somehow, now i know who gave me the strength...GOD) to say ok i cant help you ring the samaritans, speak to your brother but i cannot let you live here. Too cut a long story short he sorted his own head out. While in this crisis i found an alanon site and wow...the love and support for me was a wonderful feeling.
I then read more about alanon the 12 steps and thank my higher power I did!!!
When i was using affirmations i was changing the word god, with universe, the healing energy anything but GOD...2 weeks down the line and I couldn't imagine not using the god word.
he gave me the strength to go to my first f2f meeting. My god knows me warts and all and i know he loves me...working on the 3rd step which cannot be worked just practised and wow what fun it is to practise.
I am rambling sorry, but thankyou for your share it was so positive and touched my heart.
Godbless you :)
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What a caterpiller calls the end of the world....God calls a butterfly
Ditto :) God is great!! It's so hard to see the forest for the trees knowing God has my back is a very good thing!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
