I haven't been here for a while, so I decided a little update was in order. My husband got out of the hospital (pancreatitis, infections in gall bladder and liver) 3 weeks ago tomorrow. He did not drink for 3 days, but then (unbeknownst to me) started again. He told me he was running an errand, and actually went to the liquor store to buy a pint of WHISKEY! Of all things, he just had to buy the worst thing on his stomach. Anywho.. I found out Monday night. He has been keeping it from me for 2 1/2 weeks. Of course I got angry and said some things. I know I shouldn't have, but it just came out. He can't understand why I'm so mad because, "It is only a pint, and he had only drank 3/4 of it in two weeks!" Granted he used to drink a pint a night, but that's not the point. It's the lying. The going behind my back and sneaking around, while I'm praising him because I thought he hadn't drank a drop. Long story short, I'm back at my parents. I don't know what's going to happen marriage wise; I haven't decided. I'm just in reflection mode right now. There are a lot of confusing things surrounding me right now, but I'm actually at peace. I was praying this morning, when I really felt like the Lord burdened my heart. I spend so much of my time and energy hoping, wishing, and praying for my husband to change into my "ideal" man, and I'm completely neglecting myself. How hypocritical of me to demand perfection out of him, and go on doing as I please. I can't make him change, but I can make myself, and that's exactly what I'm going to do. It's time for ME to be a good, healthy person. I still love him, and I'm still praying for him. I still have hope, and that's what is keeping me going. Like I said, I don't know what will happen to the marriage, but I will keep praying. I feel stronger already! :)

Oh, and I have 2 requests for all you prayer warriors who may be here! I live in Mississippi, and the town I live in will be getting some effects from Isaac pretty soon. If you could just pray for our little town, it would be greatly appreciated! :) We just recovered from a pretty powerful storm not too long ago. Also, there is a little 8 month old girl from my town who was just discovered to have a malignant brain tumor. They were only able to take out 10% of the tumor, but the are pretty confident that chemo will shrink the rest. They are saying that chemo works well in babies and infants. We serve a mighty and powerful God, and I know he will take care of this little one! :) She is already doing so well after her surgery! If you would just say a little prayer for her and her family, it would mean so much! Thanks!