here i am up at 3am and missing my a and his company we both always got up around this time,i know he is missing it to,here i go agin ,harder this time being without him,but i do know i can do this,it wont be easy but it will be worth it in the long run,i do know that just have to keep thinking of all the negs he put in my life,i do love him very much but just cant go back there for several reasons,i told him we could still go our usual yardsaleing sat. mornings ,he said no that wouldnt be happening anymore cause he would prolly be gettting over a hangover where he would be haveing to stay that they all drank and he would be too,sooo thats his loss ill just go by myself,he tried to hang on here with all he had in the very end with the 12oz cans instead of 24oz cans,he never drank 12 oz,i asked him y the change of oz he said im trying to cut down,i thought it a bit of a joke but knew why and several other things he done that was just to get me to change my mind,but i stuck to my guns and just ignored them,it aint gonna be easy i know but i do hope ive learned my lessons for sure,i also hope i get stronger and things get better here,i seem to be getting depressed now,that i dont need,im takeing deep breaths,and realize that this too shall pass.thanks for listeing agin,and so sorry for the long post.....hugs silent