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I have my first Al Anon meeting tonight. Very apprehensive about it all. I was able to talk to my wife for the first time in two days. Not talking to her and being worried about her condition in rehab put me on edge. I jumped all over my kids and myself. Nothing was right and it was either their fault or mine. I never realized how much of a co-dependance we had toward each other. I never really thought "I" had a problem. It was all her drinking. Now with her gone, I'm having to face the reality that I'm almost if not more screwed up than she is. Only I have no one around to blame it on. The real crappy thing that REALY REALY pisses me off is that I want to just sit down and have a drink! Of all things!
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IF YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS DONE, YOU WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS GOT
So glad to hear that you found a meeting. I too have had a few moments here lately where I wanted a drink but considering I am a recovering A along with everything else, that is not an option so I just have to sit quietly with my feelings and let my HP guide me to a better place. Dealing with issues of my A son, I've caught myself being very snippy with my disabled husband and that brings me shame cause he doesn't deserve it.
Good for you! You found a meeting!' Apprehension is very normal. I think you'll be made to feel most welcome, and that you aren't in this by yourself. I remember the words that the woman who answered the phone gave me when I called to find out where to go. I hung onto them and said them over and over to myself for a long weekend: "It's not your fault. And things will get better." Blessings, Temple
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It's easy to be graceful until someone steals your cornbread. --Gray Charles
