The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
We have never been able to communicate, our behaviours have been immature and distructive, we have tried to resolve issues between ourselves, I realised I needed outside help to do that, it's very hard trusting people with your personal problems especially when you have to take them outside of the home, but i had too, the help was is outside of us and I don't know enough about life to know all there is to know and never will, there is HUGE resentment on both sides, my husband is yet to ask help of anyone and is irrate that I do, have, I am now at a place where I need to make a descison about leaving him, I suspect he is struggling to keep control of me, I have always been so needy of him emotionally and now I am not, this last few years I have become financially and emotionally independent for the first time in my life it is a good feeling, but I am not gloating I think I have loved this man just couldn't cope with the way it effects me, off to work now have nice day all.
take well care of yourself...you are the first and best to do that to you. and most of all, follow your heart. This matter isn't easy, and one can never know enough I guess, so don't be hard on yourself... time will show... courage and strength.
