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a went to the er this morn,hopeing to get what i call dope,he called me said they wouldnt give him a shot without seeing me to pick him up,i came on up there and he was out in parking lot and told me that they didnt give him nothing so i said so you didnt get any dope,he didnt like what i said cause i called it dope,i told him he would prolly have to go to his dr,to get his dope,i may be wrong for being so sarcastic like that as in calling it dope but i was ill too,i know he is hurting cause he is roofing and got arthritis and broken up pretty much and haveing a job like he has got aint helping it,but i also told him that his dr would prolly give him his dope but the thing is i added was that if his dr gave him a script of 30 loratabs 10mg 3/day he would take alll 30 in less than 2 days,and there he would go agin back on his cant get enough of it i tell him that he is an unfilllable hole,he got mad at me and stomps off i just roll up my windows and drive on by him,maybe i shouldnt be sarcastic toward him when it comes to his dope as i call all narcotics.then maybe i have to just keep my mouth shut and tuck my tail,and put up with him and his getting angry ,he even got mad at the med clinic,the day before he went in to get high blood pressure meds and hopeing to get dope agin but none there either so he came out got in his truck and crumbled up all the papers they gave him and threw them down,that pissed me off,and told him to not take it out on me cause they wouldnt give him anything(dope) to take it out on them,i dunno how much more i can take of it its only been 2 weeks ,then he got sweet and cut us a watermelon when we got home and sent me a pretty i love you graphic to my face book,i know he is in alot of pain for sure he is and does need something to give him relief i feel like im being so uncompassionate toward him,guess i dont know how to be toward him,i just know him all too well.thanks agin for letting me vent,need more esh here ,where and what am i doing wrong??????in and with what i say to him or talkk to him?????hugs silent
I guess my question would be: What makes you think you're doing something wrong? Because he is upset, or because your serenity is disturbed? It's not your job to keep him from being upset. But it is your job to help yourself so your life can be serene. Addicts go after alcohol and drugs, that's what they do. So that part is as per expectations. He'll keep on doing it, undoubtedly for the rest of his life, unless he goes into a formal program of recovery. So for our own serenity we have to adjust our expectations or detach or probably both. Hope you take good care of yourself.
