I can't say enough how important it is to wait for the miracle. I am so much more relaxed now that I put things back into perspective. I am no longer bored! I spent my weekend doing things that I love to do & I tell ya even shopping can make a difference if I don't let it control me. I am a bit of a compulsive shopper but I find bargains!

I watched a movie called "People Like Us" & it had some AA in it. It was kind of odd at times but the message at the end was so beautiful. I am not saying for everyone to go see the movie but I liked it. It made me realize just how connected I am to the universe & that God can change me. I have a better outlook on life. I have been reading a good book too(not Alanon approved literature but AA-centered). It is called "A New Pair of Glasses" by Chuck C. I am having a hard time putting it down. He has such a wonderful way to explain the program. Now if you are not ready for some good AA, you might not like it. I don't even know if you can find it anywhere. If I get a chance some time in the future, I am going to get my own copy.

Spirtuallity: I am really wanting to explore more of that too. Just yesterday I found myself weeping over the fact that I do have a conscious contact w/ the God of my understanding. He never makes junk & I don't have to feel useless either. I have purpose. I am worth it! I am not a product of my past & have a bright future--I just got to get out of the way.

I hope nothing I say today is coming out wrong. I feel that I apologize a lot for what I say as not to offend anyone. I just feel so passionate about life & being a part of this wonderful program that I get a bit excited. It is so good to see myself be positive again.

One day at a time!

Kathleen