Hi Tamster. Welcome! This is a very good place, and you should be proud of yourself for showing up. I came here first, and found such love and support. We will all encourage you to go to a local face to face group. They are really helpful. *hugs*

I am glad you found us and hope you can share with us your journey. Welcome to the MIP family and keep coming back, sending you love and support!

Tired of blaming myself all the time...it can't always be my fault.....I'm tired of crying.....

((((Hugs)))) u r in the right place.

Welcome to MIP! You have come to the right place. This site and face to face meeting saved my life. Recovery is great. Keep coming back.

Nancy

Really need some support tonight...

Went to event with bf last night....he had already had a few drinks....but we actually had a great night....or so I though...was an all night event lotsa people, bands, etc. I was having fun out dancing, being me....kinda on the wilder side from time to time...band ended didn't really plan on doing going to this event until 15min. Before he was ready to go.....said dress slim and bring a suit! He rides a Harley and we have gone to these bike rally's they have around Indiana over the summer. Needless to say we were not prepared properly for staying overnight, so I noticed Rick sitting down around a few people's site we had gone over to, and he was sitting real unsteady on the chair so I fall off the seat...it was about 2 in the morning some people were getting in for the night so it caused a few of the gals to get upset....started giving us a hard time....told us to chill out, blah blah...Rick couldn't stand up hardly so basically ended up a few of the girls coming over to us and telling me to leave him there and leave their campsite. I was like I don't know anyone, where the heck am I supposed to go? So it becomes this big girl squawking event....security comes over, tells me just to walk say from their site. So I have to walk away...not knowing what to do, where to go, whatever...a couple guys come over and start telling me they saw the whole deal and I got ganged up on and got a raw deal....after talking with the, for a few . I look over and see my boyfriend standing up and yelling about where I was....getting upset at me...so I start walking back over that way and this heavier set chic steps in front of me and says you're not going over there, and I said yesnI am, who the hell are you? What's your name? She gets up in my face and replies "Bitch." I was like what the hell and she lie shoved me off to avoid my going further...then these two other guys with security tops come up and start saying stuff...things are a bit heated at this point...she's calling me names...we go back and forth then she puls our her security badge....and I was like "why didn't you identify yourself?" I didn't know who you were! It was just getting crazy and I said I want someone to call the cops! Finally a cop arrived, listened to them....listened to me..l asked him the two security peoples names that I felt were out of line and were very inappropriate with how they handled things. Anyway....the offcer tells me I have to leave, he can take me to a gas station, I told him all my stuff was back in my boyfriends bike but he said I couldn't go back...I was told my boyfriend was back calling me a whore and a slut cause he didn't know where I was....I had no phone, no keys...nothing...the contakes me to gas station, let's me call the only person I could think of to help me....and get this, it's my boyfriends mother....she knows he drinks to much and things get crazy like this all the damn time! He is a very jealous person and if I am not right in front of him and he has a buzz...I am off screwing around! His mom shows up to get me....I'm humiliated...she was supposed to work extra.....had to call in.......I couldn't get into my house so she took me over to my dear friend who I couldn't have called cause she was watching her grandkids.....so I get dropped off there.....she calls Rick tells him to drop my bag with my stuff in it off at my house. She had to take me back out to my house and so I'm sitting outside on my back porch for a couple hours.....totally not believing everything! Finally I hear his motorcycle coming ...I go out front and he is sitting on it...calling me a Cunt, a whore, saying " did you blow the cop?" I was like what the heck I was trying to stick up for you to go back and help you but they wouldn't let me go back! He just kept repeating: LIAR, WHORE, SLUT......it was terrible! He was quite loud too out in my front driveway...then he gets up, gets my bag out and throws it on the ground then pushes me back against my garage door! Then got back on his bike took off and I have been just crying all day....he calls, texts me, " you are a slut, cunt whore! All afternoon....I want to puke I am so upset...i can't quit crying....