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I hear all these wonderful stories about sponsors and I would very much like to find one. My "home" meeting really doesn't have anyone that would be available to do so. I'm having a hard time feeling comfortable enough to reach out to someone I don't even know. I need to find another meeting to go to, I guess to start to try and find someone.
I am in the same boat as you amills. I have heard people say to me "You will know when someone feels like the right fit" So I keep going with that. I am not rushing myself because I know when I do - It usually doesn't turn out good. I am keeping my eyes open for someone who feels like a right fit for me. At first I though that I wanted a certain lady to be my sponsor who was in my home group but I waited and watched and realized that she had a lot of anxiety and wasn't mature enough in the program for what I needed so I am glad I didn't ask her right off the bat. Now I am thinking of another lady who I think may be the one - I totally connect with her and I have learned so much from her in the program. I am just watching right now and then I will have to take the leap and ask her - from what I hear - doing the steps is the most amazing thing! Good luck and best wishes!
I applaud you for having the courage to try another meeting. My experience is, when I seek to connect with Higher power (and that's what this is) I am never disappointed, my Higher power always meets me. Always. Our job is to seek, and you're doing that - I look forward to the results. Even when I worked with a temporary sponsor until I could find a better fit, I got just what I needed, all my experiences have value.
I am reminded of a voicemail I keep from my sponsor, when she said, "When we don't know what to do, we pray. Because while we don't know, God sure does." I think that would work well here too. Put it in your God Box and feel confident that it's coming.
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Woo hoo!! Yes, try another meeting I got my sponsor not in my home group from another meeting that I attend faithfully now as well. I love love love her dearly and I would encourage you to take the risk!! It's very much worth it and sooooo are you!!!!
Learning we are worth the risks and they don't have to be negative is a huge relief!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
