The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
One thing I have been trying to do that worked real well in the past is that I can get out of myself & do something for others. I have been waiting for awhile for answers but I never really got around to listening. I am so glad that my eyes & ears are opening again to new possibilities. I want to find something inside myself to make me happier--I think this is where the Higher Power comes in to play. I was listening to someone on TV talking about prayer. It kept coming up & I couldn't help but listen. I am going to have to work the 11th step more often. I believe my program depends on it. And, as I work the steps more, the 12th will come in to play as well. I can help you & at the same time help myself. It goes both ways. I can be a little selfish w/o going overboard. I love this program. Even when I don't participate in meetings, I can listen & learn. Yesterday, I felt the need to share & started a run on the pity party. I had to get that crap out! Now I feel better. I think that I am getting on the right track. If I start slipping, I can think of something to do to get back on track. So much depends on me & my attitudes. I can change & I want to.
Life is going to improve inside me even though somethings look very bleak. This has been really good therapy for me.
Good Awareness. The 3rd and 11th Step are powerful tools that have truly been instruments of change in my life. You are so very correct, it is an inside job and changing my attitudes thru prayer was essential.
My higher power, whom I call God, has been very instrumental in my healing process. Yes, I call it a healing process. I was broken, beaten down and a shell of my former self. However, I am now a college student at the age of 50. I would like to help people who live in the world of addiction. Change is a wonderful thing. Just remember, when feel you are at your lowest point, God is right beside you. He carried me for awhile.
