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I'm home alone my husband went to a meeting & is fellowshiping with some of the guys. I tried calling some program friends but they were busy. I went to rent a movie but I keep thinking & worrrying about everything.
Well, good on ya.... posting here is a way better option than obsessing about other stuff..... When I got like that, I just tried to use the time to really dive into MY program, my readings, etc.... it's one day at a time, one step at a time, progress, not perfection...... Keep on keeping on....
Tom
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Hard to feel it sometimes but we are never really alone. I am home alone tonight too. My son and gf left. My AHsober drop in unexpected, said hello, and left quickly. I kept busy and now I am ready to get on my knees and say take care of me HP.
thnaks for posting! its a drag to feel that way and i feel it a lot too. the way i look at it is this: because i grew up in an alcoholic family I have a tendency toward feeling lonely, depressed, hurt, etc. for instance the last two mornings i woke up and immediately felt pissed and anxious becuase i thought i was getting up super late...and i was getting up at 8 o clock! (thats early for me)
Being in al anon is me being really intentional about learning new behaviors and being okay with being by myself. Its about learning to have faith that there is another way of being, even if in the moment we can't seem to feel it.
There was a time that when I found myself alone, I'd go looking for some chaos to kill the silence - if I couldn't find any chaos, I'd create some. Today, I look forward to my alone time - for me, being alone with my thoughts is time for spiritual growth.
This is an excellent post for me to read right now. I haven't been home alone in years. It feels so strange. My AF is out on a binge since Tuesday. My oldest two kids, 22 and 20 don't live at home and my youngest two are gone. My 18 year old daughter is out of the country with her Church group, and my 13 year old is out of state with my ex inlaws. I feel so torn about being this alone. On one hand I love it and on the other I am sort of freaking out inside. I don't want to make myself do anything productive. I did some housework. I packed all my AF clothes and put them in the garage. I rented a movie last night that I didn't finish watching, but don't really feel like watching now. It's nice to know I am not really alone, since your posts remined me that my HP is here with me, and of course these message boards.
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I used to hate being alone and thought I would knit a body suit, but once I got let go and let God, I could relax and think hmmm I can paint my toes and do a work out or go for a walk or sit in front of the computer and read away undisturbed and now I enjoy it. It takes time and it cycles for me, but right now I am embracing my alone time with catching up on taking care of me. I bought hair dye and my next alone night I will color my hair and give myself a manicure. I plan ahead so I can keep busy. Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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