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First off no kids for the weekend .. lol .. I really don't know how to act at times because of it. After years and many of them having another being attached to me it's been a new experience a few times out of the month to shake my arm and there is no one there falling off!! I love my kids they can hang on me all they want .. it's just nice to have that moment to breathe!
What's so different about my life today? Well, .. today I'm headed out to go boating for the afternoon and tomorrow I will be at a hog roast. Trust me when I say .. this time last year I would have been moping around the house whinning and complaining I don't know anyone and I don't have anything to do because of it!
Today alanon is more a part of my life than I realize just as far as teaching me what it means to reach out and have somebody/many bodies reach back. It's such a wonderful experience. I have lived my life so fearful of rejection that no one would like me and now that I'm liking myself better I'm finding out that other people DO like me. I don't have to please everyone for that to happen.
God has blessed me in new and amazing ways it's been an experience to say the least. All I have to do is show up and He will show off.
I'm very excited today to get to go boating I haven't done this in YEARS .. tomorrow I get to go out and socialize some more which is a good thing. Boy does it put me out of my comfort zone and I am very excited to go and be a part of a larger group of amazing people.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a blessed day and enjoys this 24 hours to the best of their ability!!
Hugs P :)
It really does work if you work it and it really does get better even when times seem the darkest .. there is always light.
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Very happy for you! Thanks for the encouragement! Im so fearful of reaching out and finding either no one there, or voices of judgement. So, it is nice to hear that. I hope you have a wonderful time!
Have a great weekend! Sounds like fun! I am pre-packing some stuff today for our trip to FL next weekend. I'm spending some time reading and working on myself. I am so glad for you that you are making friends, enjoying some time for yourself, and that it sounds like you are trusting in your Higher Power.
Thanks for sharing your journey, Pushka. You have come so far in YOUR recovery- it has been great to be able to witness your progress. It really does work when you work it! Sending you big hugs!
It has been an amazing day today I sooo am looking forward to tomorrow. The kids are going to have a BLAST!!! I can't wait to watch them light up. I got pulled into some drama that is not on my side of the street and guess what .. the sky didn't fall in on top of me AND I never lost my peace. I still had a GREAT time and loved every single min of my time on the lake.
To sit and just be with other people and not have any pressure to be someone I am not was such an amazing gift.
I will come back to this day over the next few weeks and remember I always have choices even when I think I do not.
Hugs P :)
Thanks for letting me share it's always such an amazing experience!!
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
