The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
If you make a decision, and that is followed immediately by months of crying and wishing you didn't have responsibilities so you could just kill yourself, you have probably made the wrong choice.
It's taken me most of 2012 so far to figure it out, but I finally got the message, loud and clear: Abandoning your dreams in the name of safety/security SUCKS. Especially when it's your own anxiety and insecurity, not reality, telling you your dreams are too risky to pursue.
I'm getting back on track to move my life in the direction I want it to go -- and suddenly *poof*, depression gone! Nothing wrong with my brain chemistry, it was all my thoughts and my choices and the situation I put myself in... and as soon as I stopped trying to force myself into a life I didn't want and started pursuing the life I do want I felt better...
Thanks for the share .. :) The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. I love that part of the serenity prayer.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo