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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Yesterday was my first Father's Day w/o my dad; as most of you know he died of cancer just before Christmas last year. The day wasn't bad because I kept busy I guess. My cousin told me to think of the good things; which I did & didn't even cry. I spent my day cleaning, laundry, karoake which I haven't done in a long time. My husband went fishing w/ some friends of ours & it didn't really bother me--I needed the time I guess. The only thing was, he was gone for about 9 hrs. which kind of upset me a little but I am so glad I didn't go because I would have been bored & tired. I get bored when I am not occupied w/ something I really enjoy.
I am just so grateful that God has taught me to take care of myself & love myself enough to spend a lot of time alone w/ Him & w/ others who care. That is where the love really comes in w/ the addition of a HP. I believe that w/o a conscious contact w/ God there isn't reallly a program. I know that some people aren't ready for the next step--the 2nd one. My sanity depends on that step. I have to believe in something greater than myself--I have to believe that w/ help & others that I can do what is in front of me--what really matters.
So, I spend a lot of time praying & hoping for better days. I am confident that some days will get better. I don't have to doubt anymore.
I am open to the idea that I can & will make a difference.
Hugs to you! I lost my dad just before Christmas this past year too. I have to admit that I think I've done most of my grieving already and I had a few happy thoughts yesterday but they certainly didn't consume me. You will make a difference, no doubt about it, Kathleen. Sending you lots of support today!
