Great post dragonflys, it especially reminds me of, "Courage is not the absence of fear."   It's taking the next right action in spite of it.  From where I sit, you have courage, my friend.

When I was ready, Higher power sent angels too, I have no doubt that's what they were, people who held me up at a time when I was crumbling. Higher power KNOWS what we need, and when I kept turning to Higher power, everything I NEEDED was supplied.

Here is a gentle suggestion, for me, it became REALLY important to watch my inner self-talk, especially when I kept saying, "this is so hard," or "this is going to be tough," etc. etc. I was told to affirm myself by adding, "But, I am doing it."  Take another look, you ARE doing what you have to do!!   Acknowledging "I am doing it"  builds me up, gives me strength.

 Of course,  some days when I felt I had no strength to pull myself out of bed, I was told to pray for more strength, pray for more faith. Again, Higher power LONGS to give me what I need,  I just have to turn and ASK.

I am really inspired, you are doing it!  And you seem to truly know that This too shall pass. I needed that today, so thank you for posting.  We just gotta trudge through and in Al-anon....  we never have to do it alone. Praise Higher power