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Well, I have appeared to have past the crying my eyes out phase, and am in this weird place. Ive had a weird evening. Got home from work, and have had to deal with myself. I kept myself busy for a while. Did laundry. Watched my favorite tv show. And then I hit a wall. I got hungey. Nothing sounds good to me. The more I tried to figure out what I wanted to eat, the less I was able. I mad some rice stuff, ate a few bites, and just didnt feel like eating it. I seriously sat here four and a half hours hungry, knowing I gotta take care of me cause no one else will or should, and still couldnt figure it out. Im also bored, which I know is the vacuum left by the lack of drama Im used to. So, I go to rent a movie, and nothing is interesting to me. I picked up some food, stab at it, and also find it unappealing. My tummy is still growling. If u asked me what I want to eat if I could have anytjing at all, I truly could not tell you!Now, Im just cranky. Blehhhhhhhhh... Im lost. But, Ill keep walking. I wont call him. I womt go looking for trouble elsewhere. Tomorrow is a new day... Thanks for listening.
Thanks for sharing. I have had many days like yours. I tried everything and even did the HALT. Sometimes it can't be filled. Good, you didn't call. One step at a time.
I'm new to site but I too am going through withdrawal of sorts from relationship that seems to be ending. Sometimes I will get on phone with person in recovery or that has been through similar feelings. I have to tell myself that feelings aren't necessarily fact. I sometimes feel as if I'm going to have no life without him. My head tells me that is not true and that I had a life before I met him. Also faith in higher power that looks after me even when Im not doing life perfectly. Tomorrow is a new day and thanks for sharing. Stronghold15
Your post made me smile today I have been where your at and my sponsor said it was *HOW DO YOU MANAGE WHEN THERE IS NO ONE LEFT TO MANAGE ?* her answer was now its time for you to get a life . sheeeeeeesh so simple . Hang in there it will pass . Louise
You got all kinds of great ESH .. some days it's min by min and some days are 24 hours at a time. Take it as it comes.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Sounds familiar when I first left my exAH and well it does get better, keep taking the next best step and practicing self care/love. Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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