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Something I have shared that really resonated with me is that every bottom has a trap door .. when you think it can't get any worse it does. It's got to be a place where the pain outweighs the emotional payoff of the drinking.
You are working an amazing program keep up the good work!!!
Sending lots of love and support, you are all in my prayers,
Hugs P :)
-- Edited by Pushka on Sunday 3rd of June 2012 09:51:26 PM
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
UGH. My separated AH's life just sprials out of control again. Last night he got drunk and stepped out in front of a CAR. He was taken to the ER and now has a fractured rib and staples in his head. God knows what will be in the paper tomorrow (and he is on probation for 2 DUIs). It just never ends. I knew something was up because he just never showed up today to see his kids, which had me a little irked, but I braced myself for the worse as usual.
He is engulfed in depression. I have thought he has hit his bottom so many times I have lost count--and each time he should be grateful nobody died! I feel like he is so close to giving up on himself. He just is not *doing* it or *getting* it. It is so painful to watch the man I love come undone again and again and he hangs on to all the anger and shame of the past.
I fully understand that his recovery comes from within and I am so grateful I have this program so that I could handle this situation with peace, compassion, and strength. One hour at a time right now. I am OK--I am just praying for the right words and the positive energy to not make it worse for him. That's all I can try to do. He has SO much to deal with and figure out. I just needed to share this, it just seems to unreal to me. Again.
UGH, Sookie, that sucks. Glad he made it through alive and I pray that this incident wakes him up. Of course, we all know that it may not. My AH will be coming home from jail tomorrow and I'm working on the peace and compassion stuff as we speak. I have no idea how he will act or react to anything. I know how painful it is to watch someone implode and you just sit by as a bystander knowing that you can't do anything but take care of yourself.
Sending you lots of hugs and support today! Praying for a speedy recovery for him.
Sookie, I know this is painful, but I am soo inspired, sitting here with goosebumps. Your willingness is showing, God's grace is just shining through you as you convey love and tolerance and compassion....
I applaud you, my friend, keep doing what you're doing. I will be sending prayers, love and light for you and your family (((hugs)))
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Thanks everyone...I let him stay here because I am afraid for him to be alone after a head injury and because of his mental and emotional state. He has just been shut away in a bedroom since yesterday. ugh. I cannot fathom what he is feeling. Even he said last night, "That is not who I AM" (I do pray this is his turning point...but I will not let myself have hope). I don't have a meeting until Wednesday so I am just grateful I can come here.
Hugs, I hope you have a sponsor and have called them for support!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
