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Gee, I've been doing so good for so long-but today I had a temper tantrum. Things have been piling up the last few days (Both A and non-A related) and this afternoon I just had enough, the anger and frustration had to come out. I threw a flashlight (it wasn't working) on the ground, watched it break into pieces then stomped on all the pieces. Yelling & swearing the whole time. Then I went around banging doors for the next five minutes. It was so childish, but it made me feel better. I tell myself I didn't hurt anyone and the flashlight was already broken. Even though it was a great release I'm ashamed of my behaviour. Time to take some deep breaths and start over.
Hugs Pineapple, .. so what you had a temper tantrum it was your own private fit .. we are all entitled to those moments after all progress not perfection. Nice thing about being able to start your day over anytime you need to!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Sounds like a huve release of tension! I'm envious...I would love to have such a raw physical release but I push my anger down a lot. I always love it in movies when the protagonist sweeps the entire contents off their sesk in one grand angry explosive gesture...or throw somthing smashable against the wall. I always think "they will have to spend ages clearing that up" or "eww all the brken glass will get into everything"!!! To hear someone.not being repressed but nnot harming anyone but a dodgy torch....wow!
There's absolutely nothing wrong with allowing yourself to feel pure raw emotion and to let it out safely - which you did. I need to do that more often.
It reminds me of some sitcom episode I watched years ago - they each got foam bats and got into a duel or battle and ended up laughing hysterically - sometimes you just gotta let things out!
