The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I suppose some of you are tired of reading my posts regarding my A-he's drinking himself to death, he quits for a week and feels good, he starts drinking again and is suicidal, etc., etc. Believe me, you can't be any more tired of reading it than I am of living it. But now for the good news-for the last six months or so I've really begun focusing on me. My new years resolution was to have at least one social outing per week. (We live out in the boonies and social outings were few and far between.) I've stuck to that, and some weeks I even have two social outings-woohoo! I've been blessed recently with an opportunity to house/dog sit for some friends who are out of the country. It's been so good to be able to get away from the chaos/insanity for a while. Last week I signed up for a class, meets twice a week. Between classes and homework it's one more thing to keep me busy and keep the focus on me. I wish I had F2F meetings to attend but sadly, there are none where I live. But this board, online meetings, Alanon literature, getting together with friends, classes, and the normal everyday chores keep me busy. In fact I've been so busy that I'm tired enough to sleep at night. (For months and months I had trouble sleeping.) I seem to be rambling here, but the point I want to make is that focusing on ME (which would have seemed selfish a year or two ago) has been so much help in finding myself again and making a life of my own. Thank you to everyone here for the encouragement, support, and love you've given me.
-- Edited by pineapple on Sunday 6th of May 2012 08:46:18 AM
I hear such growth and serenity in your post and I am smiling! I am so happy for you and I hear myself thinking another saved because of Al-anon! Yeah it is amazing when you practice self-love and take care of yourself how things seem to come together for the better. I know since I dove into my recovery program my life is still hard at times, but I know I can handle it and if it is too big and I can't deal or control it, I can hand it over to HP who can! So glad you are sleeping and coming back and posting how this program works when you put the work into yourself! Sending you love and support on your journey!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Okay some gremlin just jumped my reply and shorted it out!! Hmmmm
What I was trying to say was that maybe you can think about starting your own local Al-Anon meeting with our world-wide support and Service Office. Try putting the word out (Public Information) to see if others would be interested in getting together 1 hour or so a week to discuss the problems of living within the disease of alcoholism and learning different solutions and choices for changes for the better. It can happen. I've done it several times and years later some of those meetings are still going and helping others like we got helped.
If nothing changes .. nothing changes it's been my mantra for the past 3 - 4 months .. guess what .. you my friend are making big big big changes and good for you!!!
Sending you so much love and support on your journey. Thank you for sharing your journey here :)
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I don't think I ever get tired of reading how someone else's life is. For me that dispels so much of the shame, anger and grief I endured living around an alcoholic. For the record my younger sister is an alcoholic and it is way too painful for me to be around her in any way shape or form. There are huge triggers in there for me.
I am so so glad you have found ways to distract yourself from the tremendous damage going on around you. I totally respect your decision to stay married and check on your husband from time to time. I stayed with the ex A for years for so many reasons and even now I'm not sure my exit was as carefully planned as it could have been.
