The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Thanks for the reminder. Al Anon is a One Day at a Time program from which we do not graduate.
For me, it has become like breathing. I must work my program, I must breathe, eat, rest etc . Program has become an essential part of my day and life .
I appreciate your sharing the journey
-- Edited by hotrod on Saturday 5th of May 2012 02:00:32 PM
I heard a song awhile back called "If it don't come easy, you gotta let it go!" Sometimes this is true for me. I have such a complicated mind that the easy things don't come that way. Does that make sense? I have been this way forever. I think that if things are too hard, I bolt! I just want it the easier, softer way. Some say that the Program is the easier, softer way. I can see that now. I just have a hard time "accepting" the program as the essential part of my life sometimes--I fight it I guess. I am still a work in progress. I have so far to go & a lot of time to get there--I think. I can't rest on my laurels though & be complacent when I think I have it made. I have as much to offer as anyone else. I will always & I mean always need this program--you don't graduate. You keep working & working at it on a daily basis. Our hope is getting healthy & never cured of the disease as the alcoholic is never cured of the disease of alcoholism. As I ramble on, I just want to say--stay here you will find answers & a lot of support. Try F2F meetings if you can--we love you!
You know I watched one of my neighbors today go about getting some crack to smoke with another neighbor and I can kid myself that is easy. for someone who is on welfare she has lots of funds to get a smartphone, endless iced drinks from the convenience store and has all day to do what she wants....
In theory I can wonder how come? In reality I know there is no easier softer way. While addicts deal only in today those of us in recovery have to rebuild what was snatched from us. I have to shake myself to get back to reality sometimes. The ex A was really successful at conveying an image of a light hearted, sweet, kind, endearing man. That was just one side of him. The reality was he would stop at nothing to keep on using and acting recklessly.
I know for me the easier softer way is to not be engaged with an addict in an intimate relationship but rebuilding my life is taking a lot of time, stress and energy. I hesitated to leave the ex A for so long because I wanted an easier softer way and now I'm so grateful I left and embraced al anon.
((((Kath))))....Aloha No!! I'm endeared to the saying "When the student is ready the tearcher arrives". I read your wisdom and the responses and with a smile can say..."When the student is ready the professors arrive". I've watched you grow and I am grateful to have been allowed to do that along with the other sisters who have responded. Mahalo Akua!! Thank you God.
