The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My dad worked for 33 year & 3 months at the same shipyard-I thought it was 35 years--no big deal--he still has credit where credit is due. He had to retire early due to base closures. I am still so proud of him for his service. His memory lives on. By the way, I gave him Papa Berenstain bear years ago & now I have it. According to him, it was a very special gift that I gave him. I am so blessed to have touched his heart for so many years. I guess I always felt like I didn't make him proud. I guess I just never saw anything in me. I never was able to give him grandchildren. That is one of my regrets. He never said he wasn't proud of me. I just felt like I wasn't good enough. That is my fault having low self-esteem & feeling like I didn't accomplish much. I know he had some moments w/ me that he cherished. I just wish I could've well...had more time. I am just fortunate to have had what I did--45 years!
((((Kathleen))))...you get to make an amends for yourself and move on. I like the way you celebrate your Dad with good and happy and honoring thoughts. I learned that also. ((((hugs))))
You never know what they think. My dad died at 61 which was 29 years ago. I wish he was here so I could ask him questions. Does anyone work at the same company for over 30 years any more? All the best.
