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This morning I woke from a deep sleep, with the sudden realisation, that I am where I am because of me. Not from anyone/anything else. Soley from the choices I have made for my life.
In the Laundry List book Step 5 reads - We admitted to our Higher Power, To Ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our childhood abandonment.
It goes on to say - Out of a searching and blameless inventory of our parents we come to see how we reacted, adapted, revolted and restisted -and ultimately abandoned ourselves. When we review the nature of our parents' illness, we come to see how many of their behavior patterns replaced our youthful innocence and spontaneity; we see all the desperate adaptations, all the frightened defenses we built, all of the repression, frustration and flight. Through these parent-taught mechanisms we truly abandoned ourselves.
Oh my. I have been abandoning myself all throughout my life, trying to please my parents, my husband even trying to please the God of my understanding at that time.
Tracy, it is like growing up all over again. How exciting! It is quite freeing to realize we can, and are, learning new ways. Right there with ya sister...keep truckin.
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Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible be found in us. -from Pema Chödron's When Things Fall Apart
I can relate completly with abandoning myself. I will have to order that book being an ACOA myself. I have been growing up and self parenting since finding Al-anon. I have had a lot of growing pains, but all in the name of getting better and healthier. I really have felt so many break throughs and am so grateful for Al-anon and MIP! Great share and thanks for posting it! Sending you love and support on your journey!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
I have been abandoning myself all throughout my life, trying to please my parents, my husband even trying to please the God of my understanding at that time.