I know I need sleep in a big way. I know I tend to take on too much responsibility. Awhile back I took on a fundraiser for my 13 year olds class to help fund them going to Washington DC. I am heading up the food commity that does the most and more frequent events. Today some kids from the class are coming to my house with my daughter to make 300 pancakes. My 3 year old woke up 2 nights in a row with respiratory distress (croup) and I had to take her in the second night because the nebulizer treatment and hot steamy shower didn't help like the first night. She is now on a steroid and doing better. Last night her fever got up to almost 104 and it was getting scary for me.

I am feeling all alone and frustrated at this point. I have little support here and am HALT. Always hungry and angry about other parents not stepping and helping me, lonely because I am living alone and single parenting which I choose, but it gets hard in times like these, Tired, because I like to sleep through the night. I have a big weekend ahead of me and am learning what my lessons to learn here are so this doesn't happen again. I know I can't plan the 1-2 times my lil one has croup, but the rest of my weekend is over doing for other people.

At some point down the line you will be sitting with your beautiful healthy children surrounding you and all the work you do will seem so obviously worth it when you stand back and see the beautiful human beings that you raised. I know to a degree, you already have these moments, but it's hard when you are trudging along.

Thanks for being what the world needs more of probably more than anything else - Good mothers.

Do you know of a kid who could come over and watch the kids or just be with them so you can rest in your room?

I do relate.Being a widow raising my two kids alone for 18 years was hard, but also very wonderful.I have to say I would have lost it with out my Mother who adored them.

Dear I learned a long time ago to do only what I could. When my husband died I was a mess for many years. fried. worked full time too while the kids were in school.

Keep it simple is real. Just raising your kids is plenty, playing games with them is enough maybe. I did not volunteer at all anymore after losing my guy. My focus was kids,home, vehicle.

All my life since I had toretire has been so simple. Well as simple as it can be in this world. That is in our control you know?

Plus with a sick kiddo that zaps ya big time. My gson got that croup and almost died, had to go to the hospital that thank you hp was only a few min away!You are not thinking clearly right now, I realized awhile back to not vent or talk when I am tired as it really is not how I feel. So now in the eve when I feel a little teary or strange, I remind me I am just tired.

Your feelings are very real, you are having a hard time. Facing it for me makes it so much better. Yes it will be ok, you will make sure of that. Everything is temporary. But its very ok to just allow yourself to feel what you do now.

Also things will always be ok. Meaning if you broke your leg, the show would go on! You can say I have a sick child so need someone to take my place.

I learned to delegate, some people need that as they are shy. Need to be invited to volunteer.

This is not good for you. As your friend, and having been there, I am saying honey let go, its ok, the world will not end if you cancel, and take care of you. We have to do that or we are not good for anyone.

The relief will astound you. hugs and wish I could come over and help! debilyn

some  pics to take ya away!!! (c:

 

Just taking the time to identify that I am HALT sometimes help to manage better and get through the busy or rough patches until I can care for myself again. If you are able to ... take a moment to eat something you really really like (mine is vanilla pudding in a cup) and sit quiet for just a few seconds or a 20 minute nap if possible. It's like mini self care. Sending good thoughts and energy your way!

Jen