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You are not alone. Thank you for sharing your Faith Journey. Owning the fear and then turning to Faith is a very powerful tool It is a process and you have turned it over.
In my thoughts and prayers.
-- Edited by hotrod on Friday 16th of March 2012 11:33:44 PM
I know that I am not alone so why do I feel like I am sometimes? I am working on being more positive & excited about life. I hope that tomorrow looks better than today. I hope that I can get up & feel like getting up!
I saw the doctor on Weds. I am playing the waiting game again. I know that it can be that way but why me? He knows what to do! I fell off the table after my exam. I hope that it was just because I was tired. I was not low on sugar. Got the glucose test immediately after I fell. I had been fasting but I had eaten right before & ate a very good breakfast. It was scary none-the-less.
Now I sit here w/ fear but only in the moment sometimes. FACE EVERYTHING AND RECOVER! I am only afraid when I think! Now I am done w/ my fears & moving towards faith. I hope when I get on here tomorrow I will be refreshed & ready to go. It is almost SPRING & I am excited about it coming!
I know for me, I had the awareness that one of the illusions I had growing up was that people were supposed to fill me with all of my needs; happiness, joy, excitement, etc., this was me .. i thought others were making the choice at times to give what they had to others instead of me until i realised they were trying to get something .. where I'm going with this is one day I recognised, I can be in the mall surrounded by people and feel so alone inside because my connection with my higher power gets thrown off .. the loneliness in me is only filled when I share what's going on with me and others help me to reason it through .. Only in that way have I found that I can be filled from the inside .. I always get in these rooms .. keep coming .. no matter how much we read in the alanon literature or how many times i share on the same subject redundantly; I can genuinely say, I hear something new ..
I'm off tonight myself in my emotions and feeling very down, but I'm willing to go to any lengths to get my recovery .. it isn't the priceless gift of serenity for me, it definitely comes at a price .. usually my self will and some vulnerability in shares, but it isn't at all too much of a price for what it gets replaced with .. so the Serenity in that perspective for me .. is priceless .. I know i'll feel better too after I get my share off my chest .. regardless of how it reads online ..
hang in there and keep sharing !!! in my thoughts and prayers as well ..
I can relate and am feeling very alone right now. My 3 year old woke up having respiratory distress 2 nights in a row and I had to get her to the emergency in the middle of the night last night so I am under slept, which always puts me in a mood. I have all this stuff to do because I volunteered for my 13 year olds class to help make money and have too much stressing me out. I am trying so hard this morning to hand things over and saying the serenity prayer over and over. I hope you are able to get through to the other side, I know I will! Sending you love and support!
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Hi Kathleen, I totally relate! and for me FEAR paralyzes me if I'm not careful... Someone once said to me,fear cannot exist where there is faith...I didn't quite get it then ,but today I do after a long faith quest journey...I also remember a sponsor of mine telling me to imagine my HP entering a situation before me....like if it was a dr appt, she said send HP in first and imagine Him checking it out before and having a seat while waiting for you to enter...relax knowing He is there already...I know, as I type this it sounds a little"different" but for me most times a visual works best for me, and it did work for me ,and still does when I slip back there....just figured I'd share, also others would say lean on my faith until you find your own..so I found someone in my meetings that had an unbelievable presence of faith and I did just that...that helped too...Sending love and healing, keep coming back, glad you're here!
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"I have held many things in my hands, and I have lost them all; but whatever I have placed in God's hands, that I still possess."
