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Soo .. LOL .. I've been feeling very empowered however I've been feeling pretty angry and with good reason, it's completely justifiable anger.
I had called my very wise and wonderful sponsor and shared with her that I want to feel empowered without needing to feel angry at the same time.
What she shared was (and this is what I have been doing to a point), doing the 1,2,3 waltz in the AM is totally fine. If I catch myself feeling empowered and angry figure out where the anger is coming from .. is it coming that I can control or is it something I need to give to HP. THEN I can go back to my empowerment by checking my motives for what I decide to do. (I paraphrased .. lol)
That just made so much sense to me and I feel so good about it. So yesterday I would say I had my first taste of what it meant to be empowered without feeling angry. Granted it took me a while to get there I did it!
I find that in that empowerment I make better boundaries that are about me not about what someone is or isn't going to do. I take care of myself better and because my confidence is just soaring through the roof people are really starting to respond to me outside of my house.
This was just something I wanted to share this AM and say thank you Alanon, the folks here and within the 4 walls of my meetings, without this program I know right now I would be curled up in the fetal position thinking I had no options and my life was over. How's that for a self pity streak? LOL? That's the awesome thing is that I don't have to buy into that chatter .. I get to buy into the fact I DO have options, I DO have choices and things CAN change for the better regardless of the catalyst.
Hugs all, P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Oh, I sooooo liked your share this AM! As you know, I have been struggling with my anger and it's nice to know that some day I will come out the other side in a much better place, no matter what happens in my marriage or family life.
