Your doctor knows you will do what you want to do. That includes lie to yourself and deceive yourself on what alcohol is really doing to your body. Already you are trying to tell yourself being a weekend drinker vs a weekday drinker is a good compromise. Well, that is a grave deception.

My question to you is this. Do you want to live. If you do, then you are at the right place, only you need to talk to those who are addicted to alcohol...they'll steer you in the right direction.

I have a Blast in life fyi without drinking, drugging etc. We play, we dance, we do sports etc etc and never have a hangover or confusion from not remembering what we said or did. Lots of alcoholics are working....today. It is not what the future will look like. But they are getting by today. My ex A drank heavily from the time he was of legal age to buy it, 21 to this day. He is 58. Missing a leg (alcohol wrecks your circulatory system, plus the tobacco on top of it for him), has alcoholic brain (shrinking brain from the damge due to alcohol), has been diagnosed with alcoholic dementia. Has not been able to hold a job for 4 years now. He has lost everything. He too sounded just like you back in the day. Exactly, including the liver enzymes. Our boys were 5 and 7 yrs old when this was first diagnosed. Today, he has nearly died 3 times. He is a ticking time bomb and we all know it. Just a matter of time before he is found dead. And he is young. Such a shame. Now, he gets his food from a food bank, is on the brink of bankruptcy again and is in a wheelchair. Totally dependent on others. He wasn't mean either. In the beginning. Only later. But! He Like his alcohol and No One was going to tell him he couldn't have it.

I'm glad your doctor told you to cut down. The question is, is "what you like" more important than your life? This is truthfully what you are talking about.

Best regards to you and praying you make decisions to show your love and protection of your family. Your coming here shows you are considering the state of your health. Good for you! PS There is a board for AA here, the folks over there will be your best help.