The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The truth is is that I am healing slowly. I am not sure what is going on w/ me except that I will grow through this experience & maybe give a little of it to others. I am not sure if I will heal today, tomorrow or sometime in the future but I am determined to not let pain get me down!
Sometimes I just feel like giving up but I know I can't because that is not what God wants for me. I believe that He wants me to hang in & wait for the miracle. I am very impatient & want it right now! I hope that in some way I can help someone today. I have to & I mean have to give something back today. My life depends on it! It is after all a selfish program. You have to give it away to keep it!
My nerves are a little frazzled too. I keep worrying about the stupid things I do! I have to really think before I act. I know that I am an intelligent person but sometimes I wonder.
I won't keep going w/ this as I am afraid I will put myself down some more!
Hi Kathleen. Your post rings so true. I haven't posted for a while; it has been very difficult, but I think at last I am beginning to heal. As you know, my husband died last August from alcohol related disease and the last 6 months have been so painful but also a time of healing and renewal.
Kathleen - don't put yourself down. You are stronger than you think and you have been both a comfort and inspiration to me. Thank you.
