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kitty


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Today started out great, it's sorta gone down hill.  I've been staying at my mom's, I want the company as much as she does & we love each other so much. 


It's just hard, for years she begged me to get therapy, here I go off to the therapist, taking her along with me, but she over reacts sometimes...  I used to avoid the computer like the plague.  Now I'm on it every chance I get.


I don't really appreciate her being salty with me, being in the al-anon rooms, my therapist told her & even the lawyer, it is harder on "the kids" even though I'm pushing 40.  I just want peace.  I wish I could just curl up & sleep for a year - I'm passed the breaking point over & over.  I am tired & the chronic pain is getting old.


My step-dad is such a jerk, he can't even follow the simplest, oldest house rule we have ever had -- call before you come home - cuz the dogs are often in the driveway, it's common courtesy, my mom & I both startle easily.  I'm passed wanting to "hurt" him but damn...  I guess I have to keep praying to let the anger go, so the 'wrath of God' will rain on him.


I just want serenity -- quiet, peaceful times.  I deserve it.  I'm tired, maybe it's just today... I'm tired of fighting.  Crying is cathartic, maybe a good cry & a nap, the stress is getting to me.



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kitty


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Walking a delicate line between doing pretty great & falling apart.  Maybe it's just he "new". i read once that fear is usually a precursor to some wonderful thing about to happen.  I need that about now! 

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(((((Kitty))))


Hang in there Kitty, believe it or not, your doing great!


A nap and a good cry can do wonders for stress. Also if you have the Ocean near you, screaming over the waves is so releasing.


     Love Jeannie



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{{{{{{{Kitty}}}}}}}}

Sorry today was hard on ya. In addition to keeping your day in my mind, In my next quiet moment when I can truly speak to my HP, I'll ask that he sends you that serenity.

Bob

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Hi Kitty,


Full Moon at the moment let yourself cry.  Your emotions will probably settle down in a couple of days.  Have a look to see when we get the new moon it signifies new beginnings.  Hope you and your Mum both have a great week.  Luv Leo x



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