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So the ER in the city my husband buys drugs from calls me to say my he has been stabbed, is stable, and police are there. I guess I will finish up here at work and go see how this story is going to play out.
I am already guessing that he is going to hold strong to his story that he isn't using.
I feel so many things right now I can't even describe what it is....but it certainly isn't condusive to work.
Wow! You are really having a lot to deal with lately, especially this disturbing development. I am so glad you have a program in place to lean into now more than ever. Keep coming back. I am thinking about you! big hug
Well he is alive and doing well. I remembered what someone said in a meeting about their child being in the hospital. They felt like it was a rush to get there but actually there is no need to stop your life just to go check on them (as long as you know they're stable). So, I tried to work as long as I could and then I finally made it to the hospital. His arm is ugly. Lots of stiches and blood everywhere. I don't really know what happened. But I am okay with not knowing. Because I don't believe the words out of his mouth anyway so there's no point in fretting over it. So I made sure he was okay and hugged him good night. I started to cry because he told me I need to get far away from him. So now I'm just at home with the pups, grateful he wasn't shot or something worse.
So many hugs and as far as I really stick to "I know what I know" and truly what difference does it make because the outcome is what has happened. It has helped me stop looking for things that are there and will hurt me. Yes, knowing a piece brought me peace however that was enough .. so you know he was stabbed and you know he's going to lie about it when asked, being stabbed is not normal occurrence in most people's lives I would think.
Thinking of you and sending you tremendous support !! Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Aloha ((((respect)))) been there...done that also and did it the way you did it...such a great way of working powerlessness and turning it over. So Courageous!! I'd look at his suggestion for your location seriously. You can find more peace of mind and serenity and less disturbances in recover by "DETACHING"....In support....
That reminds me of when I went to visit my ex-A in the hospital after having to have him committed when he tried to kill himself. I got cursed at and screamed at and told "get away" while he had charcoal all around his mouth and was about to get his stomach pumped. Of course he doesn't remember that night really - but I do - and I did - which is part of why I left him...too much insanity for me.
Trust me.. I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. Stay strong and calm.. you have your program. Thank HP for that. Get to a meeting, asap. worrying is futile, remember. Thank HP he is okay. maybe this is bottom.. maybe not. either way. what you are going to do?
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
You sound absolutely phenomenal. I have learned with my former roommates that absolutely every single thing is a lie so why even honor it. I used to spend hours trying to work out what was a lie and what wasn't.
