The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I began al-anon because i didn't know how to help my A and i wanted to know how i could "cure" him. But i stay here now because I'm not in the best state of mind, I now know I NEED help to be able to not only continue a relationship with him, but to actually be able to live.
Everytime I think about him my first instinct is to blame him and most of all blame myself for not making him happy. I wonder why, after growing up surrounded by addicts, would I stay with an alcoholic? Through al-anon I am slowly beginning to understand that he has two parts of himself: an addict and the man I fell in love with. I cannot blame him for the illness he was dealt. He is currently still in his relapse, but he's starting to go back to his AA meetings.
But anyways, my point is I am finally, slowly, beginning to understand ME and this feeling is undescrible, I've never felt it before.
Aloha Cassie...what you're going thru and describing I was told from the old timers was "the beginning of the miracle". I can confirm they were right. I have my own definition of miracle which arrived from inside the rooms of Al-Anon and would like to hear other definitions from the MIP fellowship.
Keep on keeping on. I'm happy with you. The one brightest expectation in recovery is the arrival of a miracle as we work for our peace of mind and serenity.
It is an amazing feeling, isnt it? I am feeling that too now and its just brilliant! I smile from ear to ear over myself.. I hope you get to f2f al-anon meetings. Thank you for sharing with us tonight!!
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
¨...I am finally, slowly, beginning to understand ME and this feeling is undescrible.. Self knowledge is a powerful thing. I'm glad you've begun alanon and are learning to know and to take care of yourself. Thank you for sharing. I'm glad you're here!
ohhh nice one there... I originally felt like I was a traveller, found myself in a foreign country, anddidn't have a tourist map or speak the language.
sending love and support it's a wonderful journey!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo