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Wednesday marked my fourth Al-Anon birthday. I was sure to attend a meeting in honor of that and was blessed with some great insights this week in how some of my perceptions have changed over the years, which indicates more growth in my spirituality and maturity.
A member at the meeting was sharing about his relationship with his HP and how he has to be careful what he asks HP for because his experience is that he's given challenging situations to deal with on account of his asking his HP for certain things.
I remember early last year, I was reflecting on how I was still fearful of my HP. Meaning that I was feeling the way this person does... the whole "careful what you ask for, you just might get it" thing... like my HP is this sneaky, mean trickster not to be trusted. So I remember early last year setting a goal to start TRUSTING my HP.
Now, I didn't put a whole lot of effort into this goal. I'm sure I asked in a few prayers occasionally to my HP to help me trust him/her, but that was it. But when I was sitting in that meeting on Wednesday, listening to that member share about his own relationship with his HP, I sat there thinking "You know, thinking my HP likes to trick me when I ask for help does not serve me. My HP loves me and only wants me to be happy." And that's when I had this epiphany that I had received what I asked for earlier last year... the ability to TRUST my HP. Gosh, just typing this brings tears of gratitude to my eyes. I am so grateful for that growth.
I had another epiphany this morning. On Thursday morning, I was just feeling really grateful for all my life experiences, to my HP, and to the wonderful friends I have in my life whom I love so much. I was thinking about how I just love to love people, and asked God to keep bringing more people into my life for me to love.
My epiphany from that? I was reflecting that my asking HP for more people to love was was a huge change from my old line of asking for someone to love me.
Wow.
To top it off, I just feel so grateful that I feel so filled up right now that I'm ready and willing to dole out love.
Thank you, so much, Al-Anon. Thank you, HP, for bringing me to Al-Anon. It's amazing how much this program works.
I like this share it helped my awareness too. I always say careful what you wish for thinking along the same lines. And now that I look at it, I know my HP is not out to hurt me just to help mold and support me. Thanks for this! Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Wow what an inspiring post. You have truly worked a powerful program.
I am in awe.
To be so filled up with love that you re asking HP to send more people for you to love and not looking for someone to love you.!!! That is what it is all about
Thank you for sharing your recovery!!! Got to keep giving it away to keep working it!!!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
